Wednesday, January 29, 2014

Sink, Sank, Sunk...I'm Tapping Out

Drew Kathleen, you have defeated me. I have said for 6+ months any combination of the following as excuses for continuing to nurse you in the night:

  • She's so petite. And she really nurses. So maybe she's still hungry?
  • She only wakes up once and goes back down so quickly, it can't hurt?
  • She won't take a pacifier, so I don't know how to teach her to self-soothe.
  • Her wake-ups are getting later and later in the night, so surely she'll figure it out.
Well, times up. 

Last night you partied from 12:45 - 3:45 AM. You cried for me, you ripped your rail guard off and gnawed at your rails {you will probably have wood chips in your poop tomorrow}, you screamed. I nursed you probably 4 times. You cried when I put you back in bed.

I went to bed at 11:45 {after working for 2 hours}, was up 4 times between 12:45 - 3:45 and woke up at 6:20 for work. Mama is tired. You are getting WORSE at sleeping. All my excuses are just that...excuses.

I am at a loss for how to help you sleep through the night without just letting you cry and figure it out on your own. We did it with your brother, but he took a pacifier. I am scared of how tonight will go. I don't want you to cry for hours and feel abandoned {yes, I recognize I'm being dramatic, but these are still my feelings. #mamaproblems} little love...I will see you in the morning. Gulp. I guess the upside is I can catch up on Downton Abbey while I watch you on the monitor?


Anonymous said...

Your husband told you so, you failed to listen. Best of luck.

Shannon Sentences said...

Good luck! It will be short-term pain for long-term gain, but that's hard to remember when you hear your baby crying, I know. But a few days from now when everyone is getting more sleep, it will all seem worth it!

Kelly said...

How did it go?

Dee Stephens said...

Oh, NO! Can't wait to see how it went! :(