Today I left the house...by myself...for the first time since Trent was born. Dad manned the fort, and I went to the library and Starbucks. I was gone for about 45 minutes. It felt great to be 'normal' for a little bit and weird all at the same time. When I left, Trent was asleep. When I got home, Dad was holding him minus 1 sock and his outfit unbuttoned (apparently Dad wasn't fast enough changing Trent's diaper and he got a little fussy, so Dad didn't quite finish the last step of the diaper change).
I'm looking forward to a) leaving the house with Trent by myself (haven't done that yet) and b) going somewhere for longer without Trent (maybe to see Harry Potter?!?!). I know there are mothers out there who handle the transition to motherhood with ease, but I'm proud of myself for the steps I'm making, small as they might be.
2 comments:
It takes a while, but you're doing great! The first time I went out by myself (after firstborn) and did something 100% for my benefit...I felt incredibly guilty. Just remember --Mommy needs to be happy and healthy, so she can make sure baby stays happy and healthy. It's all about balance, but again, you're doing great!
I love that we have blogs these days to share our feelings. I went through the exact same thing after Mason was born, and then again when Alex was born. It's such a series of emotions that you go through. Andy always told me I needed to write a book so other women would know it's a normal process. There will be even more emotions when it's time to go back to work. But lets not go there yet! You are doing FANTASTIC and everything you are experiencing is normal. You are currently doing the hardest job you will do in your life, raising a child. You have the right attitude, one step at a time!
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